Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Celebrating Lughnasadh

As most people I've been busy with various things this summer and tonight have plans to celebrate Lughnasadh with a friend. It's very exciting. Rather than a stuffy ritual or anything like that we're going to celebrate it our way. We're making a feast, have a bonfire planned and will just enjoy it. It doesn't sound like most people's version of the holiday but I'm okay with that because it's precisely what I am in the mood for. :)

Our menu is:
Basil Pesto on pasta
Stuffed Mushrooms
Roasted Garlic Corn
and Homemade Bread of course

With wine and cider to drink.

Last night I did my own ritual. It felt amazing and was well worth the effort. I felt peaceful and elated. Quite the odd combination. I think it stems from this article: 10 things to stop doing if your pagan The biggest one for me is the very first one "Stop trying to fit your new religion into your old one". It might sound basic but the best way I've always been able to approach my Pagan spirituality is through the Christian foundation from my childhood. Meaning, the way I address prayer (Yes, I pray to my deities sometimes), the use of spending a day focusing on my spirituality, etc was all patterned after Christianity. I supplemented of course, enjoying rituals as the need or sabbat occurred, talking to my deities when in nature, thanking them throughout the day whenever I noticed a miracle or blessing, etc. And it's worked but it's always felt a tad off. Reading the article clarified the issue, I was trying to put a round peg into a square hole.

I'd decided to have a celebration of Lughnasadh with a friend. I'd bought break making supplies and messaged her to come for supper. She's still working on her path and unsure of precisely where it places her so a ritual would have been strange for her and as a solitary practitioner, it would have been strange for me too. But I felt the need to celebrate the holiday and enjoy the sabbat. So, as an alternative I thought "What do we do to celebrate mundane holidays?" And then it hit me! Good food, good drinks, great company and some fun activities. And when spent with other Pagan type people, how could it not be an amazing sabbat?

And that's what tonight is all about. :) I'm really looking forward to it. I'll let you know how it goes.

How do you celebrate the sabbats? Any special Lammas/Lughnasadh activities?

As always, Blessings and have a fab day!!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Settling in, a place for everything and everything in it's place

I'm heading into my 4th month of living in my new little apartment in the new city and am still working on making it home. The simple things like buying furniture, hanging pictures and drapes have been done and the "style" of my home is coming together slowly.

The challenge I find is filling it with my energy and finding that perfect spot for my altar. I'm a little picky in the placement of my altar because I don't want it too on display nor do I want it hidden in a closet. I have a perfect room that I've dedicated for that purpose and now all I need is to place my altar.

Now for the confession: I don't actually have an altar. Yeah, yeah I know, it can be a table or anything as long as it works for the purpose. And while I have used makeshift ones I'm without a surface strictly for that purpose.

What do you use for your altar? Is it small? big? Out in the open? Put away?

With Lughnasadh upon us I'd love to set up my sabbat altar and celebrate the holiday but feel disjointed.

Hopefully the Goddess will send me some guidance soon. As always folks, blessings and have a fabulous day!

Friday, April 20, 2012

Fertility Goddesses and the infertile pagan

After 6 years of trying for a baby with my ex husband, I figured I was infertile. We split and he got another girl pregnant asap so that rather confirmed it.

Now, this isn't extraordinary by any means in today's society. Where this hits home is that like a lot of women, I've always wanted a child. As most pagans have noticed, most of the Goddesses have the mother componant. The triple Goddess, maid then Mother then Crone. So what happens to a woman that goes from maid to the next stage if she's not a mother? Does she become a Crone?? And if you aren't able to have a child, does that diminish your ability to follow a fertility goddess?

To be honest though, despite the heartache over what feels like a failure and the devistation that your life isn't going to be blessed with a child, a part of me was relieved. Did I really want to have diapers, babysitters, toys everywhere, etc?

Up until now, my life hasn't really been kid friendly. Late nights, some partying, and to be fair, I like to spend my money on me. Often on the most frivolous things! lol.

So after all that I'm considering looking into my fertility options. Having the tests done and eggs checked, etc. It's daunting and scary but I think I'm finally ready to know for sure what's going on.

I've also started looking at adoption. Where I live, you need to be at your job for a year before you can go on Adoption Maternity leave and I've only just started here. I have at least a year before I want to take the leap but it's definitely one of the leading options.

Have you dealt with these issues? How has it impacted you? Has it changed the way you feel about your deity?