Sunday, October 9, 2011

Pagan in a small town

I've been in my new small town for a week and 2 things have really surprised me:

1) I'm alone in the pagan community out here.
That is to say, there is no pagan community here. It's deeply Christian and anything else is ignored. Even Halloween isn't really celebrated which makes me sad since it's my favorite holiday. This year I may not have a Samhain celebration. This makes me so sad.

2) I don't feel the connection to the God and Goddess out here.
Yup, I feel alone. No spiritual connection and doubt that there even is a God and Goddess. That thought is so foreign to me that I'm depressed. It could be that my magical supplies are out on the other side of town in a storage unit or that I'm deeply closeted here. Either way, it's crushing.

As for #2 it could also coincide with my view of the "ideal" life. When I watch TV or think of "perfect" lives they involve happily married monogomous couples with financial success and comfort, but they ALWAYS seem to be deeply Christian based lives. If I want to get married again and find a great man to have a monogomous marriage with and all the bells and whistles, do I need to change my faith? Is the belief in "Christ" a requirement to a happy life in the Prairies? It would certainly make things easier but is it worth it?

Things aren't happening here as fast as I'd hoped and I'm getting discouraged. Part of me is doubting if moving here was the right choice. I'm sure that I'm just experiencing doubt and fear but I don't know if my faith is enough to withstand these times.

I'm going to see if I can celebrate my holiday and enjoy it. And I will continue to ask the Goddess to bless me and help me get work and a place to live. In the meantime, this Pretty Pagan is feeling a bit like Lonely boy.

Blessed Be

Friday, September 16, 2011

Moving, What's your spiritual check list?

It's been a while since I've posted and at this point in my life I'm preparing for a large move to another province. Along with the usual moving preparations I've been planning the spiritual aspects as well. Anywhere that you live or spend large periods of time often absorb residual energy from you. Add magic work to that mix and you have quite the indellible impact on that space. But what do you do when you leave? Removing the physical objects are important but removing and releasing residual energy is also just as important, you want to make sure you havent forgotten anything behind.

There's a prayer I found in a book that someone used for this purpose. I think making your own is better and more personal.

My alter has been left up and I'm meaning to pack it away but want to be able to dedicate the time and energy to it. As each item gets wrapped and put in the box I want to cleanse and renew it for the new home and release the previous energies from them so that the new home is a fresh start. I start by casting my circle then simply inviting the four corners/elements and the god and goddess. I talk to them as I put things away and I say a prayer or blessing for each item. (You don't need to bless each candle stick separately lol and you can use different blessings for different items). Then thank the deities and say goodbye.

As for the space, once everything is packed I clean it physically but also spiritually. Sweep out the bad energy, sage the corners, and I have a prayer written at home that I'll post later that I often use just to disconnect spiritually from that physical location.

Wow, I'm rambling a bit. It's been a LONG day and very little sleep for the past week and a half. The move is exciting and great but there's a lot of work to be done and I'm getting completely pooped. Lol. I have some financial matters to attend to as well which is not helping the personal chaos.
The whole point I'm trying to make is that it's just as important to disconnect and move the spiritual energy of your home the same as it is to disconnect and move your electrical/hydro/phone/internet/cable services.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Dark Moon celebration

I'm taking the opportunity of the dark moon to work on banishing negativity from my life.

There isn't a lot that I want to remove but I've noticed my focus and a few things that needed some banishing.

I also love that it's a chance to spend time with the goddess. I like to focus on removing fear by facing the darkness and the dark goddess.

We often allow fear to hinder us from not only living exceptional lives but also from connecting with our friends and loved ones. How often have you said or thought, "I couldn't say/do that, they'd think I'm nuts/desperate/ugly/etc". I use this time to work on overcoming those negative thoughts and ideas that hold me back.

How have you spend your dark moon?