Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Celebrating Lughnasadh

As most people I've been busy with various things this summer and tonight have plans to celebrate Lughnasadh with a friend. It's very exciting. Rather than a stuffy ritual or anything like that we're going to celebrate it our way. We're making a feast, have a bonfire planned and will just enjoy it. It doesn't sound like most people's version of the holiday but I'm okay with that because it's precisely what I am in the mood for. :)

Our menu is:
Basil Pesto on pasta
Stuffed Mushrooms
Roasted Garlic Corn
and Homemade Bread of course

With wine and cider to drink.

Last night I did my own ritual. It felt amazing and was well worth the effort. I felt peaceful and elated. Quite the odd combination. I think it stems from this article: 10 things to stop doing if your pagan The biggest one for me is the very first one "Stop trying to fit your new religion into your old one". It might sound basic but the best way I've always been able to approach my Pagan spirituality is through the Christian foundation from my childhood. Meaning, the way I address prayer (Yes, I pray to my deities sometimes), the use of spending a day focusing on my spirituality, etc was all patterned after Christianity. I supplemented of course, enjoying rituals as the need or sabbat occurred, talking to my deities when in nature, thanking them throughout the day whenever I noticed a miracle or blessing, etc. And it's worked but it's always felt a tad off. Reading the article clarified the issue, I was trying to put a round peg into a square hole.

I'd decided to have a celebration of Lughnasadh with a friend. I'd bought break making supplies and messaged her to come for supper. She's still working on her path and unsure of precisely where it places her so a ritual would have been strange for her and as a solitary practitioner, it would have been strange for me too. But I felt the need to celebrate the holiday and enjoy the sabbat. So, as an alternative I thought "What do we do to celebrate mundane holidays?" And then it hit me! Good food, good drinks, great company and some fun activities. And when spent with other Pagan type people, how could it not be an amazing sabbat?

And that's what tonight is all about. :) I'm really looking forward to it. I'll let you know how it goes.

How do you celebrate the sabbats? Any special Lammas/Lughnasadh activities?

As always, Blessings and have a fab day!!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Settling in, a place for everything and everything in it's place

I'm heading into my 4th month of living in my new little apartment in the new city and am still working on making it home. The simple things like buying furniture, hanging pictures and drapes have been done and the "style" of my home is coming together slowly.

The challenge I find is filling it with my energy and finding that perfect spot for my altar. I'm a little picky in the placement of my altar because I don't want it too on display nor do I want it hidden in a closet. I have a perfect room that I've dedicated for that purpose and now all I need is to place my altar.

Now for the confession: I don't actually have an altar. Yeah, yeah I know, it can be a table or anything as long as it works for the purpose. And while I have used makeshift ones I'm without a surface strictly for that purpose.

What do you use for your altar? Is it small? big? Out in the open? Put away?

With Lughnasadh upon us I'd love to set up my sabbat altar and celebrate the holiday but feel disjointed.

Hopefully the Goddess will send me some guidance soon. As always folks, blessings and have a fabulous day!

Friday, April 20, 2012

Fertility Goddesses and the infertile pagan

After 6 years of trying for a baby with my ex husband, I figured I was infertile. We split and he got another girl pregnant asap so that rather confirmed it.

Now, this isn't extraordinary by any means in today's society. Where this hits home is that like a lot of women, I've always wanted a child. As most pagans have noticed, most of the Goddesses have the mother componant. The triple Goddess, maid then Mother then Crone. So what happens to a woman that goes from maid to the next stage if she's not a mother? Does she become a Crone?? And if you aren't able to have a child, does that diminish your ability to follow a fertility goddess?

To be honest though, despite the heartache over what feels like a failure and the devistation that your life isn't going to be blessed with a child, a part of me was relieved. Did I really want to have diapers, babysitters, toys everywhere, etc?

Up until now, my life hasn't really been kid friendly. Late nights, some partying, and to be fair, I like to spend my money on me. Often on the most frivolous things! lol.

So after all that I'm considering looking into my fertility options. Having the tests done and eggs checked, etc. It's daunting and scary but I think I'm finally ready to know for sure what's going on.

I've also started looking at adoption. Where I live, you need to be at your job for a year before you can go on Adoption Maternity leave and I've only just started here. I have at least a year before I want to take the leap but it's definitely one of the leading options.

Have you dealt with these issues? How has it impacted you? Has it changed the way you feel about your deity?

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Pagan in a small town

I've been in my new small town for a week and 2 things have really surprised me:

1) I'm alone in the pagan community out here.
That is to say, there is no pagan community here. It's deeply Christian and anything else is ignored. Even Halloween isn't really celebrated which makes me sad since it's my favorite holiday. This year I may not have a Samhain celebration. This makes me so sad.

2) I don't feel the connection to the God and Goddess out here.
Yup, I feel alone. No spiritual connection and doubt that there even is a God and Goddess. That thought is so foreign to me that I'm depressed. It could be that my magical supplies are out on the other side of town in a storage unit or that I'm deeply closeted here. Either way, it's crushing.

As for #2 it could also coincide with my view of the "ideal" life. When I watch TV or think of "perfect" lives they involve happily married monogomous couples with financial success and comfort, but they ALWAYS seem to be deeply Christian based lives. If I want to get married again and find a great man to have a monogomous marriage with and all the bells and whistles, do I need to change my faith? Is the belief in "Christ" a requirement to a happy life in the Prairies? It would certainly make things easier but is it worth it?

Things aren't happening here as fast as I'd hoped and I'm getting discouraged. Part of me is doubting if moving here was the right choice. I'm sure that I'm just experiencing doubt and fear but I don't know if my faith is enough to withstand these times.

I'm going to see if I can celebrate my holiday and enjoy it. And I will continue to ask the Goddess to bless me and help me get work and a place to live. In the meantime, this Pretty Pagan is feeling a bit like Lonely boy.

Blessed Be

Friday, September 16, 2011

Moving, What's your spiritual check list?

It's been a while since I've posted and at this point in my life I'm preparing for a large move to another province. Along with the usual moving preparations I've been planning the spiritual aspects as well. Anywhere that you live or spend large periods of time often absorb residual energy from you. Add magic work to that mix and you have quite the indellible impact on that space. But what do you do when you leave? Removing the physical objects are important but removing and releasing residual energy is also just as important, you want to make sure you havent forgotten anything behind.

There's a prayer I found in a book that someone used for this purpose. I think making your own is better and more personal.

My alter has been left up and I'm meaning to pack it away but want to be able to dedicate the time and energy to it. As each item gets wrapped and put in the box I want to cleanse and renew it for the new home and release the previous energies from them so that the new home is a fresh start. I start by casting my circle then simply inviting the four corners/elements and the god and goddess. I talk to them as I put things away and I say a prayer or blessing for each item. (You don't need to bless each candle stick separately lol and you can use different blessings for different items). Then thank the deities and say goodbye.

As for the space, once everything is packed I clean it physically but also spiritually. Sweep out the bad energy, sage the corners, and I have a prayer written at home that I'll post later that I often use just to disconnect spiritually from that physical location.

Wow, I'm rambling a bit. It's been a LONG day and very little sleep for the past week and a half. The move is exciting and great but there's a lot of work to be done and I'm getting completely pooped. Lol. I have some financial matters to attend to as well which is not helping the personal chaos.
The whole point I'm trying to make is that it's just as important to disconnect and move the spiritual energy of your home the same as it is to disconnect and move your electrical/hydro/phone/internet/cable services.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Dark Moon celebration

I'm taking the opportunity of the dark moon to work on banishing negativity from my life.

There isn't a lot that I want to remove but I've noticed my focus and a few things that needed some banishing.

I also love that it's a chance to spend time with the goddess. I like to focus on removing fear by facing the darkness and the dark goddess.

We often allow fear to hinder us from not only living exceptional lives but also from connecting with our friends and loved ones. How often have you said or thought, "I couldn't say/do that, they'd think I'm nuts/desperate/ugly/etc". I use this time to work on overcoming those negative thoughts and ideas that hold me back.

How have you spend your dark moon? 

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Basics pt 1

For anyone starting out in Wicca, witchcraft, paganism, etc:

Witches creed:
With harm to none, free will to all

I've seen a range of variations but no matter how you say it, there's a basic rule. Don't harm anyone with your spells, remember that all are to have free will in what they do. Personally I like to add: and by the rule of three, so mote it be.

The "rule of three" essentially means that what ever I send out, I'm prepared to receive three times the effects. So if I'm wishing a world of hurt on someone, I best be prepared to receive 3 times a world of hurt. Simple really.

The "so mote it be" is said to be borrowed from the Freemasons. I say it to reaffirm my request and to end the circle/spellwork. It's a way of saying, "because I wish it so, it will be". However you want to phrase it is up to you.

Now that we have those established the basics and you've gotten the traditional warnings out of the way I have one more:

Be careful what you wish for! You just might get it.

I know that sounds silly but it's true. Dabbling in magic isn't helpful. Most people see some results then end up hurting themselves or others. Also, be fully aware of how your request could turn out.
Asking for a great man is all fine and dandy but if that great man belongs to someone else, your world wont be all that rosy.

I could go into detail at great length but the likelyhood that anyone would read it all and be fully aware of the gravity of the situation is miniscule. So instead I'll say this:

Remember that the deities (Gods and Goddesses) don't see time and language the same way you do. Be very specific and precise in your wording and intent! Now that that's been said, lets move on.

If you're looking for teachers or advise there's plenty of websites and local pagan shops. I suggest checking out witchvox. It's one of the largest and most used sites I've seen to date. 

For reading or other webpublished articles check out Patheos's pagan portal. Fabulous authors and great information.

There's a great number of books for beginners from Silver Ravenwolf's how to ride a silver broomstick to wiccan for dummies.